my job not you business

 Pasti pandangan orang tentang profesi seorang model itu berbeda. Ada yang berfikir kerjaanya enak, cari duit gampang, pasti cantik- cantik atau ganteng-ganteng terus terkenal, segalanya deh. Intinya dunia modeling itu identik dengan glamour.
   Tapi ada juga yang berfikiran dunia modeling itu 'free' pergaulannya gabaik, clubbing, minum, drugs, free sex, homo sex, dll. Gue gabisa bilang mana yang salah dan mana yang bener dari dua pandangan itu menurut gue semua bener.

    Gue akuin emang bener kaya gitu, tapi gue suka benci sama orang yang suka SOK TAU!!! Dia gak ngerti kondisi tapi asal judge orang contoh " itu loh chacha, dia model pasti gaulnya gak bener" that's it ! Gak semua model itu gak bener, gak semua model itu busuk, gak semua model juga bejad.
    Harusnya kalian bersyukur dan bangga sama diri kalian masih punya orang tua yang masih sanggup bayarin kalian kuliah, jajan, hanging out sama temen temen, nonton, pacaran dll. Diluar sana banyak anak yang kerja buat cari duit jajan, persetan pekerjaan itu apa, yang jelas halal dan bukan asusila jelas dia model catwalk, jual badan untuk peragaan busana itu halal beda sama yang jual diri, kalaian masih bisa bedain kan duit halal sama duit lendir?? Jadi kalian pikir dulu sebelum judge orang gak bener, andaikan dia orang kaya dia gak akan pernah jadi model.

    Intinya gue lebih suka sama orang yang udah keliatan brengseknya di luar, dari pada mereka yang fake! Coba kalian bayangin mereka ngomong "aku-kamu" tapi kelakuan mereka gak lebih baik. Zaman sekarang banyak orang busuk, mereka cuma bisa komentar soalnya mereka gatau susahnya cari uang, gak sedikit dari mereka yang terlihat alim diluar ternyata banjingan di dalam, be your self, gak masalah seburuk apa penampilan lo, temen yang baik itu yang bisa terima lo apa adanya, mereka yang buat lo up bukan mereka yang buat lo down, mereka yang kasih lo solusi bukan mereka yang hanya bisa komentar, cepat atau lambat lo bakalan tau siapa aja temen lo.

i am me

I'm a teenager. I make mistakes. I spend most of my time online. I go to bed late and I'm crazy about one person.

I'm not popular, but I have nice friends. I'm not rich but I have what I need. I may not be liked but I know I'm loved. I fall, I make mistakes, I learn, I've been hurt but Im alive. Im human, Im not perfect but Im thankful.

There's really no shortcut to forgetting someone. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don't anymore. You deserve someone who knows how to make things up again after making you feel bad, not someone who's very good with just the word "sorry".

I've learned one important thing about guys. Some will be your best friends, but It takes one special person to change your world. The more you show your true feelings, the more people find ways to hurt you. True Story!

bestfriend or boyfriend

A boyfriend shouldn't just be a boyfriend. To have it happier and more worthwhile, they should also be your very best friend. It's cute when couples act like bestfriends or when bestfriends act like couples. If two people are happy together, then leave them alone.

I hate when I feel like me and my bestfriend are drifting apart. The more you hide your feelings, the more they show. The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow. I wish I knew how to explain exactly how I'm feeling. Falling for the wrong people is my only talent. Sometimes, two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together.

Whenever I'm alone, I think. When I think, I remember. When I remember, I feel pain. When I feel pain, I cry. When I cry, I can't stop. Parents, problems, friends, fakes, boys, love, crush, dating, responsibility, drama, heartache, failures, stress, happiness. It's life.
Talking to you is the favorite part of my day. I had a lot of reasons to give up on you. But I still chose to stay. You had a lot of reasons to stay. But you chose to give up. You know they're special when no matter what mood you're in, they can make you smile. When you want them, they don't want you. When they want you, you don't want them. When you both want each other, something messes it up.

for you

The worst feeling is having feelings for your friend but you don't want to get with them because you don't wanna lose your friendship. Love is never planned. It doesn't happen for a reason. But when love is real, it becomes your plan for life and your reason for living. I don't hate you, I never could. I don't regret meeting you, I never will. But I do regret our relationship. It destroyed our friendship.

Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feeling are better left kept to yourself. Nobody can lie. Nobody can hide anything when you look them straight in the eye. I can't lie if I love you but I don't wanna lose our friendship. Its crazy how people don't know how to act when they get into a relationship, but when they see it falling apart they wanna get it together.

It sucks when you know that you need to let go, but you can't, because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen. You've pissed me off, you've made me cry, you've made me scream...but at the end of the day, I wouldn't want to be with anyone but you. And the worst feeling in the world is when you know you're losing someone and there's nothing that you can do to prevent being replaced.

sometimes

Sometimes, you don't know why you like someone. Sometimes, there are no reasons why, even if you try harder to find it.
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time - britney spears "sometimes"

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people, and I ask them why is it so hard to keep it real. Someday, you’re going to meet someone that drives you mad; fight with, laugh with, and turns your life upside down.

Sometimes, goodbye is just a painful way to say I love you. I don't need anything special. I never have and I never will, as far as I'm concerned, you're beyond special. You're amazing on every level. I don't even know why I'm worried about losing you when you're not even mine.

Sometimes we play with love. But when the time comes and we realize we wanna get serious, love plays with us. He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, yet you fall for him. You miss him, even though you know he's never thought about you.

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice. If they don't, you know where you stand with them. I am not hurt because i love you, I am hurt because I  already put me trust in you and you let me down.

Sometimes there are things in life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we need. Hiding your feelings isn't the easy way out but sometimes it's the only thing you can do.