i am me

I'm a teenager. I make mistakes. I spend most of my time online. I go to bed late and I'm crazy about one person.

I'm not popular, but I have nice friends. I'm not rich but I have what I need. I may not be liked but I know I'm loved. I fall, I make mistakes, I learn, I've been hurt but Im alive. Im human, Im not perfect but Im thankful.

There's really no shortcut to forgetting someone. You just have to endure missing them everyday until you don't anymore. You deserve someone who knows how to make things up again after making you feel bad, not someone who's very good with just the word "sorry".

I've learned one important thing about guys. Some will be your best friends, but It takes one special person to change your world. The more you show your true feelings, the more people find ways to hurt you. True Story!

bestfriend or boyfriend

A boyfriend shouldn't just be a boyfriend. To have it happier and more worthwhile, they should also be your very best friend. It's cute when couples act like bestfriends or when bestfriends act like couples. If two people are happy together, then leave them alone.

I hate when I feel like me and my bestfriend are drifting apart. The more you hide your feelings, the more they show. The more you deny your feelings, the more they grow. I wish I knew how to explain exactly how I'm feeling. Falling for the wrong people is my only talent. Sometimes, two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together.

Whenever I'm alone, I think. When I think, I remember. When I remember, I feel pain. When I feel pain, I cry. When I cry, I can't stop. Parents, problems, friends, fakes, boys, love, crush, dating, responsibility, drama, heartache, failures, stress, happiness. It's life.
Talking to you is the favorite part of my day. I had a lot of reasons to give up on you. But I still chose to stay. You had a lot of reasons to stay. But you chose to give up. You know they're special when no matter what mood you're in, they can make you smile. When you want them, they don't want you. When they want you, you don't want them. When you both want each other, something messes it up.

for you

The worst feeling is having feelings for your friend but you don't want to get with them because you don't wanna lose your friendship. Love is never planned. It doesn't happen for a reason. But when love is real, it becomes your plan for life and your reason for living. I don't hate you, I never could. I don't regret meeting you, I never will. But I do regret our relationship. It destroyed our friendship.

Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feeling are better left kept to yourself. Nobody can lie. Nobody can hide anything when you look them straight in the eye. I can't lie if I love you but I don't wanna lose our friendship. Its crazy how people don't know how to act when they get into a relationship, but when they see it falling apart they wanna get it together.

It sucks when you know that you need to let go, but you can't, because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen. You've pissed me off, you've made me cry, you've made me scream...but at the end of the day, I wouldn't want to be with anyone but you. And the worst feeling in the world is when you know you're losing someone and there's nothing that you can do to prevent being replaced.

sometimes

Sometimes, you don't know why you like someone. Sometimes, there are no reasons why, even if you try harder to find it.
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time - britney spears "sometimes"

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people, and I ask them why is it so hard to keep it real. Someday, you’re going to meet someone that drives you mad; fight with, laugh with, and turns your life upside down.

Sometimes, goodbye is just a painful way to say I love you. I don't need anything special. I never have and I never will, as far as I'm concerned, you're beyond special. You're amazing on every level. I don't even know why I'm worried about losing you when you're not even mine.

Sometimes we play with love. But when the time comes and we realize we wanna get serious, love plays with us. He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, yet you fall for him. You miss him, even though you know he's never thought about you.

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice. If they don't, you know where you stand with them. I am not hurt because i love you, I am hurt because I  already put me trust in you and you let me down.

Sometimes there are things in life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we need. Hiding your feelings isn't the easy way out but sometimes it's the only thing you can do.

goes to sawarna

kami 7 orang pergi ke pantai sawarna, ada rizky, abel, luqman, egi, yudis, abid, dan gue sendiri. berangkat jam 11 pagi dari jakarta dan sampe desa sawarna jam setengah 9 malam. jangan kalian pikir jalanan menuju desa sawrna itu enak yah, jauh dari kata enak. jalannya belok-belok turunan, tanjakan curam ditambah kanan kiri jurang. lebih parah kalo perjalanan malam gak ada penerangan jlanan sama sekali menuju desa itu. dibilang terpencil yah emang terpencil, mau cari mini market pun susah. setelah sampah tidak ada hotel atau pun cottage seperti yang gue bayangin yang ada hanya homestay penduduk aja, lumayan sih dari pada gak ada, perkepala/perorang sehari 120ribu itu udah termasuk makan tiga kali loh, relatif murah sih. karena sampe sana amlem gak ada yang bisa diliat semuanya item alias gelap tapi paginya wahhhhh....... jangan ditanya perjalanan 8 jam terbayarkan semua. pantainya keren banget, buat orang awam kaya gue yah gue bilang itu lomboknya dipulau jawa, lo semua gak usah ayal babu ngebayangin pantai bali yang eksotis keren tapi disini lebih keren, sepi , hmm privat banget cocok buat orang bulan madu ditambah warga sini yang humble sama pengunjungnya.

kalo kesini lo bisa kunjungin laguna pari disana ada karang bentungnya kaya tangga itu keren banget, laguna pari letaknya paling jauh, medan tempuh buat kesana juga susah banget, jalan kaki lewatin sawah, jembatan gantung sepanjang 50metern mendaki 3bukit hmm gue bukannya lebai tapi emang kenyataanya gitu bisa sih naik ojek tapi cuma orang orang super yang berani mati yang mau ngelawatin jalan setapak banyak batu kerikil begitu.

ada tanjung layar, ada pasir puti nah disini enak banget buat berenang eitss tapi hati-hati ombak laut selatan terkenal ganas itu semua terlepas dari mnitos mitos tempat ini angker ya, oiya satu lagi ada karang merah lo gabakalan nyesel mengabadikan gambar lo disini, jelas orang bakalan ngiri ngeliatnya

just a friend itu nyesek

Pasti pernah dong ngerasain yang namanya suka sama temen sendiri? Bukan hal yang aneh lagi sekarang dari "temen lama lama jadi demen" ini nih, yang lagi gue rasain.

Singkatnya gue gapernah contact langsung, seperti ngobrol ataupun bercanda sama dia, secara gue notaben anak yang ansos autis dll susah buat mulai duluan, kaya basa basi itu tapi dalem hati sih pengen banget. \(‾⌣‾)/

Sebut aja nama cowok itu si otong (‾⌣‾)♉ , gue suka nih sama si otong ini, awalnya sih kayak nyombalngin si otong ini ke sahabat gue tapi berhubung sahabat gue gak respect ke doi, malahan gue yang kena, gatau kenapa makin lama makin suka, padahal si otong ini gak cakep cakep amat, bisa dibilang jelek lah, hmm buluk malahan (astagfirullah) tapi kenyataan guys, dia jelek.  (⌣́_⌣̀) 

Pasti lo semua bingung deh kenapa gue bisa suka? Ya pertama karna cool hmm wkwk ♥ _♥ (menurut gue ☺ ) tapi gatau kenapa, gue ngerasa dia lebih nyaman temenan sama gue, sempet sih berfikir, iyakali gue bukan tipenya dia? Terus tipe dia yang kaya gimana? Jelek aja belagu!! Kalo pun tipe dia 'high class' apa iya mau sama yang buluk kaya lo? (̾˘̶̀̾ ̯˘̶́̾ ̾̾'̾̾)̾

Ahh... Pikiran negatif mulai deh tuh, tapi selow but sure kalo kata salah satu artikel yang gue baca di internet, "don't play hard to get, but play smooth to catch" haahaaa maksudnya, jangan sok jual mahal, tapi tetep main aluss (҂'̀⌣'́)9 c...... Gue masih nunggu tanggal mainnya kok guys, mungkin postingan blog gue yang ini bakalan berlanjut, yang awlanya judulnya "just a friend" menjadi "friend becomes love"  ( ˘͡ -˘͡)  haha ngarepp   ... ☺

new fase

Gue bilang ini new fase atau fase baru, fase baru apa? Jelas fase baru tentang hidup gue secara ini blog gue (Krik! Garing! Abaikan!)  (⌣́_⌣̀) 

Gue gatau bilang ini sebagai temen makan temen atau hmm. . . Temen makan makan? Langsung aja intinya kita mulai semua dari pertemanan, yah siapa tau dari temen lamalama jadi demen iya kan? Itu kejadian dari temen terus jadi saling suka (hmm gatau sih dia suka gue apa engga)

Pokonya satu hal yang bikin kentang, kita berdua pengen sama sama terus gak pisah, tanpa jadian! Tuh gimana JLEBBBB gak (̾˘̶̀̾ ̯˘̶́̾ ̾̾'̾̾)̾ kesel pasti kan kalo tiba tiba dia sama gebetan laen? Hahaaa berasa mau telanjangin terus geret deh pake bajaj (‾⌣‾)♉

9 langkah menarik hati cowok

1. Jadilah stalkler hebat
Jelas lo harus tau dulu, dia gimana? Gamau kan suka sama orang yang salah? Kepo in dari twitter, facebook, cari tau lewat temen atau hal lain deh sampe lo yakin baru maju

2. Be fabulous
Gausah tebar pesona, kalo emang tampang lo pas pasan, apaan yg mau lo tebarin? Hah! Paku! Gausah sok sokan, bikin diri lo so different! Lagian cowok juga enek kali sama cewe yang suka tebar pesona

3. Staycool
Senyum seperlunya depan dia, gausah tolol kalo ada hal yang lucu terus lo ketawa ngakak, itu bakalan nunjukin sisi kampung lo, senyum seperlunya nunjukin kalo lo lebih elegan

4. Keep it
Jangan terlalu open tentang diri lo, kan lo baru pdkt dan proses penggaetan, bikin dia makin penasaran, semakin dia penasaran semakin dia gabisa lepas dari lo so, you must try it !!

5. Be your self
Jangan ngelakuin hal goblok! Contoh doi suka banget futsal terus lo soksokan suka futsal juga nonono. . . Lo bakalan keliatan freak! Orang yg pure ngerti futsal atau dunia cowok beda sama yang cuma pura pura

6. Eyes contact
Kebiasaaan yang paling bodoh adalah kalo udah eyes contact pasti cengo, tablo, bloon . Aduh please deh, coba lo eyes contact ke dia cukup 5 detik gak lebih terus buang muka abis itu coba liat dia terus kasih senyum terbaik lo! Dijamin kalo gak dia ngefly~ (intinya cowok tuh seneng dialem *dibaekin maksudnya)

7. Pujian
Kalo hubungan lo makin intens, coba sesekali lo puji dia di sela sela topik pembicaraan atau obrolan (cowok seneng banget di puji) bikin dia ngefly lah~

8. Calm down
Maen aluuss, gausah buru buru buat jadian alus aja, slow but sure! Pelan pelan tapi tempel terus, kalo dia mulai nunjukin sinyal sinyal lampu ijo, tarik ulur dikit lah biar makin seru~

9. Jangan goyang
Maen alus, tanjep gas, gas poooll, jangan goyang maksudnyaa udah pelan pelan tapi di pepet terus tapi tetep yakin ini dia kalo dari awal gak yakin ngapain lo baca tips gue sampe point ke 9 ?? (‾⌣‾)♉

back to basic

Hahaha basi banget kali ya kalo gue nulis ini sekarang? Okee ... Kta mulai nyampahin blog guy's, sekedar info aja ini pengalaman gue pribadi, gak lama lama kita mulai ceritanya

Ini cerita tentang guesama mantan gue yang notaben nya anak satu kampus sama gue sebut aja gogon namanya hahaa *piss (‾⌣‾)♉ .
Awalnya sih gak kenal nih guys sama si gogon ini, tapi seiring berjalannya waktu (halah bahasa gue) jadi kenal, ditambah insiden gue jatoh dari motor (bingung ya? Kenapa jatoh dari motor terus bisa langsung kenal?)

Begini nih ceritanya, garagara gue jatoh dari motor, si gogon ini jenguk gue kerumah sama anak sekelas, untung aja rumah gue gak ambruk, sempet bingung sih mau naro itu anak anak dimana? Gamuat juga rumah gue. Nah dari situ jd kenal bla bla bla ........ Initinya proses pdkt berlangsung boss ! Gak cuma dirumah gue doang, dikampus juga ala ala anak labil lagi deket deket lah gitu. Sampe akhirnya jadian nih gue sama si gogon wkwk

Yang bikin kentang itu, selama jadian gue ngerasa flat, datar, rata, hambar, apalah gitu gak berasa pacaran, karna gue anaknya males nanya biarin ajee, fix sampe sikapnya berubah di minggu ke 2 setelah jadian tambah males intinya, tapi selow baleih deh rasain aja, lanjut ke klimaks nya okee...

Doi ngajak ngampus (clubbing maksudnya) so, nolak 1000alesan dong!! Mulai gak bener nih pacaran, bukannya bikin better malah sebaliknya iyakali keluar jam 1 pagi? Etis gak? Gatau deh buat mereka yang ngerasa jam udah gak bener lagi, dan hal itu mungkin yang bikin doi stuck diemin gue hahahaaa overwrite banget !! Sepik bego aja nanyain kenapa tapi klasik guys cuma dibales "engga kok, gapapa, gak kenapanapa" lol haha ;D

Nih yang bikin kentang lagi, malemnya gak ada anggin di baik tuh gatau deh ada terong dibalik kolor kali, (hmm positif positif) hahaa baik baik baik udeh tuh baean kita berdua, eh ada aja gatau setan dari mana dan bikin gue makin yakin dia itu hmm DROP!!!!! Garagara hal sepele dia bilang "kita udahan aja yah, gua gak nyaman" (gua?? Lo hidup di gue? Wkwk gue kali) nah intinya kita putus.

Pelajarannya, lebih baik pacaran sama cowok yang ketauan bangsatnya si luar deh dari pada lo berasa beli hamster dalem kresek! Lo gabakalan tau doi gimana sama tuh kaya beli hamster dalem kresek, PERCUMA KEKER TAPI BRENGSEK
Sorry, bukan maksud sih, gak kesel juga cuma bawaannya mau ngakak tiap inget kejadian ini, berasa kenal terus sama pacaran sama anak kaget gaul terus baru belajar belajar bandel :))) okeee see you next story :* :*

kalo gak brengsek ya homo !!

sekarang udah gak asing lagi dan banyak yang bilang tioe cowok itu yah ada dua jadi gak usah ayal ayal babu bakalan ada cowo baik, tampan, tajir, setia hahaaa kentut !! emangnya sinetron? cowok yah cuma ada dua ? kalo dia gak brengsek yah pasti dia homo...^_^

kalo gue pribadi sih, lebih prefer sama cowok brengsek, gatau kenapa. kedengeran tolol sih, tapi coba deh lo bayangin lo pacaran sama homo? hmmmm... apa rasanyaa, napsu aja engga dia sama lo! intinya bad boy its so cool.....